New year, fresh start.

Evening all. :)

Well, it's a little late but nevertheless - happy new year!! Better late than never as they say.
Now that 2012 is out the window and away, I must say I'm glad. 2012 was probably - and I'm not being dramatic here - the worst year of my life. Very few "life-changing" things happened for the better but plenty did for the worst. None of you will know about what I've went through this past year and I'm not going to go into immense detail on it but I give you an insight.

Last year my parents separated. From sometime earlier on in last year (before the separation) I'd been really down and hadn't really been very happy. This was getting me down because I wanted nothing more than to be a happy person again. Naturally I'm a pretty positive person in general, so being down like that was hard. But after the separation things only got worse for me. I became even more down. There were a few happy times but like I said, a few. As this year went on I just got more and more upset. I wondered if I was becoming depressed but I wouldn't know for sure unless I went to a doctor or talked to someone about it. I never did and I still haven't to this day. I guess I just never had the guts. But hey, here I am posting it on the internet!

Throughout my down time I've experienced things I didn't think I ever would - and by that I mean bad things. I never asked for any of this, I never wanted any of this. In lots of ways I wish I could take the whole year back and make something really special of it and look back on it and think "wow that was an amazing year for me!!" Now I'll never get that chance. But that's okay, because I did learn a lot from being upset and I gained a lot of understanding, of certain feelings and why a person does certain things and how certain things affect a person, whether that be in a good or bad way.

So this year, I plan to make a fresh start. I want to get my life back to being a LIVED life! Not the depressing mess it has become. Hopefully I can make this work. It'll be hard - it has been already, and the year's barely begun! But I reckon I can pull through.

For anyone else who might read this or stumble across it, I suggest you get the help you deserve asap because otherwise you may regret not getting it. Everyone deserves to be happy and everyone deserves to have a life to look back on that they're proud to say they lived.

Good luck guys!!! And all the best for 2013. Let's make it a good one. :)